2 posts tagged “musings”
the moment often arises in the midst of the fog
where you find you've been drawn to a glimmering shimmering golden light
it beckons you closer, and though you can't feel it's warmth...you sense it
the memory of what it feels like is what keeps you, warms you and embraces you as it draws you in
the bassy beats
the mellow tone
the siren's deep song
they were all agents of spirit
i feel it...me...
vibrating, numb-tingling running through my veins
expansion from conscious thought
i feel it like a butterfly fluttering just above my skin
sensations of flight fill me
sending chills through my body
i won't label this feeling
i've learned at least that much
*may you all experience this at least once today*
I was thinking about a conversation from earlier today about blogging/posting online. More specifically it was about whether or not to blog online in places where, if you're posting about someone you know or some situation someone is involved in, others who know the person (who may remain nameless) might see it.
For instance I have a situation with "X" and I write a poem about "X" not including their name, however it's posted in a forum where people that "X" knows may potentially stumble upon it...the chances aren't great...but anything is possible. I fully understand what it would feel like for "X" to even come across it, if it hurts in offline life it's bound to hurt online as well. A good point to bring up here is that I feel I'm very conscious about what I post and where. Another really good point here is I feel it's important to have places to fully express what I'd like. I've found that it touches people, but more importantly I feel naked...I've released and done it (I feel) tastefully.
Running into this dilemma in the past brought me to the decision to seek blogging, for full expression consciously tasteful or tormenting relentless release, elsewhere. So I used many other sources under many aliases to do my blogging. I didn't however find these sources to be so pleasing for a few reasons: if anyone uses my computer and checks my history while using my computer they'll see what I've written, if my husband uses the computer and I was angry and blogged about it he could be hurt by the release of steam, and having to worry about erasing the history in order to blog freely is a hassel that makes blogging more inconvenient for me. Could I just make those blogs private? Sure. Do I want to though? No. Why? Because for some reason I like the idea of having the world wide web as my release/confessional and getting comments from people about their perspectives and so on. So my next question is: Shouldn't we have someplace we can do this? The ultimate release in writing...can't we have this anywhere? And...How?
If you happen to read this...I'd like to hear your thoughts/experiences. What have you tried? What conscious solution did you come up with that pleased everyone including you? If you were the one blogged about...how did this make you feel? Suggestions?
