2 posts tagged “you are alive”
the moment often arises in the midst of the fog
where you find you've been drawn to a glimmering shimmering golden light
it beckons you closer, and though you can't feel it's warmth...you sense it
the memory of what it feels like is what keeps you, warms you and embraces you as it draws you in
the bassy beats
the mellow tone
the siren's deep song
they were all agents of spirit
i feel it...me...
vibrating, numb-tingling running through my veins
expansion from conscious thought
i feel it like a butterfly fluttering just above my skin
sensations of flight fill me
sending chills through my body
i won't label this feeling
i've learned at least that much
*may you all experience this at least once today*
here I go again...
I've been bitten by the education bug and been seduced by new frontiers of consciousness. I'm hopelessly entranced by the mere thought of attending a school that fits my dreams so well. And yet again I am reminded that dreaming and "hopeless entrancement" can be a good thing. I keep running into these programs of study, things fall into my lap that peak my interest and vroom vroom...I'm off. It's exciting! The rush of discovering a new plane to take myself to, imagining the unimaginable view of looking down from greater heights. This feeling of excitement! Oh god I love it!!! This is what motivates me, what gets me going! I feel it coursing through my veins...literally. The energy flushes through my body, I get high off of it and almost nothing can touch it. I do, however, dread the criticisms of those who don't dream as much anymore, those who say things can't be done. But this!...THIS! This IS it! This life! This dream! The most exciting notions, the delectable curiosity, the relentless interest! THIS IS WHAT IT IS ABOUT!
...find it, that thing...that small almost imperceptible thing, the piece of paper with a note on it that could be so easily passed off...does it interest you in some way? look it up, research it...maybe that piece wasn't it, but from there you find other leads, don't think or obsess about finding it, just keep looking at the things you find interesting...it will come...but you have to let your child like wonder lead you, explore with curiosity what you would think impossible and find where you can start. ...LIVE! you're already alive...so LIVE!
go!
do!
learn!
be!
and for everyone's sake...DREAM dammit!
